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If you’ve ever had the feeling of complete emptiness & weren’t sure how to fix it, I’m there & I’m sorry you’ve ever felt this way. It feels so wrong to be so down when, in reality, I have it nowhere near as bad as others. But I can’t seem to shake it regardless. For every day I work I see 2 homeless men, one is quite obvious, he smells like a portapotty and could seriously use some meds & new clothes. He believes I am Russian & his mother gave birth to Patsy Cline in the Soviet Union in the 1930’s, also I was also apparently married to some man he hated in the 60’s. He believes that one of my co-workers murdered someone in the 60’s and frequently succumbs to cursing fits in our coffee section corner. I do not allow myself to fall into the same manner of thinking as some of my co-workers that he somehow brought this life on himself & I often buy his coffee for two reasons: 1. I’m sorry but I do not want to touch his money, and while many people may find that incredibly rude (and it probably is) I have a bit of a germy issue and already wash my hands a ridiculous amount of times, I do not think I could handle that. and 2. If I can’t spend two bucks to give somebody a hot drink who could truly use it I seriously need to re-evaluate my priorities. And on to the second man, he is much less obvious about his current living arrangements and to my eyes appears quite sane, and fairly clean, though well worn.

(After that spiel, I forgot why I went on and on & had to go back to the beginning of my post to find out)

The whole point is that despite knowing and seeing this with my own eyes it still pains me to smile and I can feel the emptiness inside my chest, like it should ache but it doesn’t, it’s just nothing. Then I feel guilty about feeling this way and I am pushed further into despair. What right do I have in my apartment with my husband and pets, technology and a full fridge to feel this way? But it won’t go away despite what I know, despite the guilt weighing me down.

Here is where my life stands today:

I head back to classes next week, I lack the funds to pay for my books or the rest of my school supplies.I fear that the way I feel is going to take a toll on my grades, last year it did & I was not as deeply affected as I currently am. I fear that my brain will not keep up with what it needs to and I will fail, I do not deal well with failure.

My dog is having health issues and I lack the funds to bring him to the vet so I’ve been treating him myself with some polysporin, peroxide and goldbond. I feel like a failure once again & I’ve already said that I do not deal well with failure.

There was a time when I had a full time job that I didn’t love but I worked with and I was damn good at it. I had money in the bank and plans, adult plans. Things changed, the company I was working for changed hands and my goals changed, drastically. I wonder all too often if I have made the right decisions, especially when I am going through these trying times.

I spend entirely too much time in tears. Tears of frustration, of anger and since I am being honest, self loathing a good part of the time. I truly do not like myself, and it’s not merely an appearance thing. Yes I hate the way I look, and I feel as though there is nothing I can do about it. I’m fat and yet losing weight does not come easily & I find myself green with envy over my friends’ accomplishments and lacking any real motivation to begin my own.

I can’t find any happiness in the upcoming births of my newest nieces and nephews, and although I try to fake it I can sense that there is something off and not quite right with it that I am sure is being noticed. Am I jealous? Yes I am, of course I am. How can it be so easy for others to bring life into this world when my body struggles to even have a proper cycle. A little while ago somebody made a comment to my friend Amy about their family being perfect now that they had a boy, a girl and the two parents. Having a single (gorgeous) child that they are perfectly happy with and no plans to have any more, this irked her. All I could think at this time was how pathetic & pitiful my life would seem to the person with the perfect family.

On top of everything else, my husband & I are having some issues. I do not want to go into them here because it would be unfair to him to do so. In one clear moment today I suggested that we see a couples therapist but the look on his face at that revelation shut that down immediately. He was more than a little uncomfortable with that idea & I get it, I only every once in awhile feel brave enough to admit my problems to somebody else. There is a reason I did not post this to Facebook, but still made it public; a ploy to try and make myself accountable. Having to resort to a therapist, a shrink, a psychologist is something that I can understand…. for other people. For myself it is a weakness, and in addition to not taking failure well I certainly do not deal with weakness well. But I am losing patience more often than not these days, I snap at my husband often and have contemplated leaving him for his own good. Ultimately I am too selfish to do so, but he would be better off with someone more deserving, someone nicer, sexier and someone who has all their shit together. He is not going to be pleased with this, but again I have to reiterate that I am trying to make myself more accountable and I don’t think he understands just how low I get. He is oblivious to what is right in front of him and doesn’t see that there are problems that need to be addressed.

And that is an update on the state of my being. I am a poor excuse of a human being right now, and I do things that I probably shouldn’t when I am down here. Again not something I want to put out into cyberspace, but that’s the way it seems to go for me. Before I even realize what I’ve done, I’m on my second round….

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I originally wanted to do a photo blog but the dog was in need of a walk so I decided to grab the hubby and take Zacky swimming. Problem is…. School’s out so the beach area around home is packed with screeching anklebiters & my dog gets ridiculously excited in crowds. Also he does not get along well with other dogs & the likelihood of running into other dogs is more probable at the beach area than other parts of the lake. i thought about sending the hubby home with the dog alone after he was sufficiently tuckered out but I opted for the I am still cool look today in my sunglasses (therefore I cannot see a bloody thing) and an old bra, with no support, because I can actually wear it with my t-shirts, unlike the one which actually supports me, & my first pair of homemade jean shorts since I was a teen.

Me…. Being the coolest I can possibly be 🙂

Shortly after lathering ourselves up with sunscreen we took off down the street, moseying along at a good sniffing pace. Tongue flopping out with a goofy grin on his face <<< That was just the hubby. Surprisingly we didn’t see a single dog until we left the swimming hole, and in reality we didn’t even see that dog he just started yelling at Boogs from the balcony.

Sidenote:

I have only one dog. He has several names we call him on a regular basis. So to save confusion I could call him Zack (his official, on his license name), Zacky, Booger, Boogs, Goobs, Goober, Schmoodle, Stinks, Stinker, Schmoodle Schmooderson, Goobie, Boogie, Zacharias, & sometimes Sweet Pea. I’m sure there could be more but for the purposes of this blog I’ll refrain from using others…. Well today

So we’re walking along on the path, on our way to Zacky’s swimming hole when he decides that he’s just going to run in and out of all the super tall grass and send insects whizzing at my face. WTF Boogs WTF. I might have wanted to stop & snap a photo but he wasn’t having any of that. He knows exactly where he’s going and he’s got no time to stop while Mom takes a picture of a bug that he’d rather just scarf down, burping out bug breath. Ooops scratch that, one stop he had time for but I won’t go into that one…

We’ve Arrived!! Welcome to Zacky’s Swimming Hole. In the background there’s an island I want to visit once we finally get around to getting that raft. Today there is a ridiculous amount of seagulls on that grouping of rocks further away. Those bastards are loud and annoying, not to mention Halifax seagulls (okay birds in general) are massive gluttonous creatures that could probably take on my 80lb dog and come out victorious.

Gooby’s testing out the waters. I think he’s decided that, the water’s good times and it’s now time to head out and rock the wet dog smell.

While I stayed dry on land snapping pics Eric took the dog in. You might be asking why on Earth the dog is still on his leash? Well my dog likes to run & since I rather like him, he’s my best friend, I like for him not to drown or run off into the close by busy intersection. It may not look like it from these pics but there is an industrial area not far off on the right side of these pictures. 80lb dog versus several tonne transport is not a vision I intend to see, so he stays on his leash. Although we definitely have to get him a longer one than his regular walking leash. So off they went, daddy & dog, to play in the water with whatever could be found to be slightly entertaining.

Apparently I was far too close to where the mic is on my phone so I’m overly shrieky in addition to being normally nasally & have some strange cackle towards the middle. Yeeeeah… Sorry ’bout that.

During this whole swim fun, which I didn’t participate in. Damn me and my oversight, should have brought some sandals or ratty old shoes so I could go swim too. Next time. So yeah during this fun time I was running around on land listening carefully for other dogs incoming or shrieking children or even pot heads looking for a quiet place to smoke. Found some beautiful dragonflies, shimmering a gorgeous royal blue. Think I could get off a shot, noooo, darn things wouldn’t stay still long enough, Pooo. Ran into some ants which I still have to look up. Fairly certain they were carpenter ants, Half red & half black & fairly large but going to give it a whirl later on either http://www.whatsthatbug.com or http://www.bugguide.net

Back to swimming Zack…

I wish I’d been able to get him while he does his funny swim. Sometimes he’ll bite at the water and it looks so funny. Almost like he’s saying to himself, “Gotta get this water out of my way, get out of here water!”

Buuuuuuut Daddy, I wanna go see Mom now!! She’s got sticks up there & I want ’em.

A man and his dog. He was sitting nicely in his arms just before this but apparently I am just too slow on the snap. He’s decided he’s going exploring over there and that’s that!.

Come on Dad, hurry up. There’s some ‘splorin’ to do.

Zack the Sea Monsteeeer!!

Sadly this is highly typical of how we talk to each other as the dog, and then answer. Are we dorks?

I would say, um yeah did you not see that video??

As we were walking home I noticed that Goobs was sparkling like the Twilight vamps in the sun. I tried to get a picture of it but it didn’t transfer well. But let it be known that if my dog was a vampire he’s be much cooler than the Cullens…. By far! In fact he’s already one up, he has fangs, lol.

So I haven’t included a blast from the past in the past few blogs so getting back to tradition. Here is Zacky’s winter time fun. What we like to call snowplowin’ Really he’s just trying to take his Husher off, but sSsssshh don’t ruin my fun!

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Last night I woke up really upset, not to mention creeped out completely. I had not only given birth…… to a freaking foal of all things but my husband handed me divorce papers because I had pimples on my chin. Sadly this can’t even be considered my strangest dream because I apparently have an incredibly vivid imagination while I am asleep. Here’s a recount of some of the stranger dreams I’ve had..

Last night:

For whatever reason Eric & I had an urban farm area smack dab in the middle of the city. And on this farm (totally just got Old MacDonald stuck in my head ;-p) we had horses, but also some kind of scientists. The scientists implanted me with horse junk while I was riding a massive black stallion in a horse parade through the Dartmouth ghetto. Next thing I knew I was in my apartment bathroom and a huge splat of nastiness fell out of me, on the floor & partly landed on the dog. Sorry Boogs…. I went to tell my husband incredulously that I had just given birth to a foal & he decides he’s going to call his father to tell him without even bothering to say anything to me at all. So, in total Van fashion, I kept interrupting him to tell him again and again and why wasn’t he helping me. He then gives a huff and tells his father that he’s gotta go. He gets up silently and hands me 2 sets of divorce papers and an extra copy of one of the single pages. At this point I have no clue where the horse is, in fact I don’t see him again for the rest of the dream. I ask Eric why he’s divorcing me, and then scream it at him when he doesn’t answer me. Finally he sighs and says, “You’ve got acne on your chin & she says that you can get treatment for that but you don’t.” In the best snotty voice ever I sneered, “SHE, who the fuck is SHE?” It doesn’t matter he replies, this is about you. And then I woke up only to find my husband missing. Okay he was only in the bathroom but in my sleep boggled mind he was gone… And I don’t even have pimples on my chin as an excuse….

When I was a child I absolutely loved the Child’s Play movies. Should I have even seen at that age, yeah, probably not. But that’s besides the point. They didn’t actually scare me per se but they did prompt strange recurring nightmares that DID scare me so I assume there were some aspects that did scare me subliminally. In this dream I was always being chased by a tiny little basketball player wearing a red jersey. he was a vicious little bastard too. In one of my dreams I was living in Waterloo on Peppler Street and he wanted to kill me so bad he took a bulldozer to our house. Ripping off chunk by slow agonizing chunk of our front porch while taunting me to just come out and make it easier on everyone else. He chased me on his itty bitty legs up the street to a local playground where I completely outdumbassed the bimbos from horror movies by getting on the swing to try and kick him away while I was going to jump away after and run. WTF, really!! These dreams eventually stopped somewhere around my mid-teens years & I don’t think he’d ever actually gotten me but I can’t be certain anymore.

When you start having dreams about work I think it’s become apparent that you spend entirely too much time there. Shortly after I became and assistant manager for Shit Stop in KW I had a dream that the new store I had been moved to was attacked by ninja assassins. These guys literally came out of the ceiling tiles, completely dressed in black with those silver throwing stars. Which they then proceeded to throw at me in ninja fashion. I don’t even watch ninja movies where the fuck did this come from?? After they threw a zillion star thingys they just left, they were either really good or really bad because they didn’t hit me once…

Another time I was working in C’ton at the gas station I had a dream that I was in the back cooler having dirty sex with Eric. Why dirty you ask? No not anything especially fun in THAT department, but if you’ve ever been in a walk in drinks cooler, you’ll know that they are a sticky dirty mess and I was in there getting plowed by my boyfriend. Oh did I forget to mention that I also had two turkeys on each of my hands…. Yeah, oh and the store was open for business too so when people came back to by Pepsi I pushed it at them with my turkey fisting hands while Eric pumped away behind me.

What I hate the most is when I have dreams that repeat themselves all night long. I’ve recently had one where I was sitting in Hell’s Kitchen on a stool just reaching out to some unknown desire. Over and over again I dreamed this same thing that night. I’ve also repeat dreamed sitting on a beach for a sunset while a lone sailboat drifted by in front of the setting sun, sounds beautiful right? Not so much on the hundredth float by.

I have game dreamed several times as well. When I first started playing WoW I kept dreaming quests after I went to sleep. I’ve dreamed Angry Birds levels. Played slumber Bejeweled and killed Diablo several times while I tossed and turned.

I have never had a falling dream that I can remember. I have, however, had a dream where I was standing on my friend Leah’s balcony (15th floor) and walked the railing looking while thinking about jumping. I have flown many times, sometimes with wings, sometimes not. Once I even flew in a fantasy land (probably after reading a book) on a sea monster. Bet you expected dragon there right?

I have had dreams in which I’ve left my husband for another woman. Others in which he’s left me. Sex dreams with who knows & one with an animal. That was disturbing!!!

I have also dreamed up ideas. I came up with the decorating scheme for our wedding head table in a dream. A story idea which never came to fruition, something about mermaids…. And an idea for a painting I want to try sometime in the near future. Since I don’t paint and can’t draw to save my life (my stick people look fat…) this should be interesting.

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Being out of school & having only a part time job has all of a sudden new chances to try new television shows. So I had Eric download me the American version of Being Human & decided to try Girls & Femmes Fatales on OnDemand. I’d heard a lot of Being Human from some friends on Facebook & they seemed to really enjoy it. Girls & Fmmes Fatales had interesting blurbs and either just started or had season 1 available so I decided on those to try one night while I was bored. Below are my thoughts.

 

Being Human

 

So there’s Aidan the vampire, Josh the werewolf & Sally the ghost. They all live together in one house & try to make a go of it with their resp0ective struggles. Josh is an orderly at a hospital & Aidan is a nurse at the same hospital. Yeah, a vamp working at a hospital, sound familiar? It’s really not. Anyway…. I truly expected to love this show from the get-go, I remember seeing a preview of it & I just couldn’t wait to try it. Well I’ve tried it & I just can’t force myself to go back and finish the season. I find Aidan (hot as all hell ;-p) just the cliché struggling to stay good vamp but failing at times. I liked that there are vampires in every facet of the city to ‘clean up’ any mistakes that any of them make. I did like seeing Mark Pellegrino back on screen though, there’s just something I love about him & hey being head vamp dude is not so shabby. Josh is THE most annoying werewolf in the world I’m sure. I cannot stand his whining or his whiny faces. And Sally, well there just wasn’t much to her at first & I don’t think I’ve made it far enough to say how I really feel about her. I’ve checked the spoilers though & if you’re anything like me, you are right as rain about her death circumstances.

Overall, it has some moments but not enough to draw me in. I think I’ll try the British version since it’s on NetFlix. The acting’s not bad but I don’t feel much chemistry among the characters, but again it could be that I just haven’t made it very far in. For me, B-

Femmes Fatales

It was an interesting concept to me. Women (always gorgeous, of course) coming out on top through methods not exactly innocent. Boy was I wrong. This is apparently based on a Men’s magazine which explains a lot I didn’t know in the first 3 episodes. One reviewer on IMDB said he didn’t feel as though nudity was seen just for the sake of seeing it, I disagree. I saw so many lady bits I was confused about what I was watching. The show is a cheesefest, over the top acting that I‘m sure hope is a part of the act. The show apparently does pretty well but I’m not sure who’s watching it, okay scratch that it’s men duh. The few plots that I’ve seen have had potential, a young movie starlet being thrown in jail with a jealous head guard & she has to survive however she can, even after catching the token jail baddie & a nurse who is taken hostage by a gangbanger brought in from a gun fight. But everything went so wrong.

Overall, too cheesy/skinemaxy for me. C-

 

Girls

 

I’ll be honest I’m not yet sure how I feel about this show. Actually that’s not totally true. I feel the same way I felt about Nurse Jackie when I started watching that. I felt an inexplicable draw to it. I needed to know what was going to happen but I wasn’t sure why. The creator’s (Lena Dunham) character is by far the most irritating character on television right now. She reminds me of Michael Cera, the voice, the mannerisms & the incessant talking fast to make a point. I was a girl that age once & my sister is that age now. This is not the strange shit that happens when you are 19-20. Certainly not Jessa’s life!! Although I have to admit she is my fave character because 1. I LOVE her accent & 2. She’s not afraid to be vocal about wanting & getting sex & 3. She’s not bloody afraid of anything. She’s fucking wild & crazy and I envy that mentality. The ‘I can do whatever the fuck I want’ mentality. Shoshanna is by far underused in this show, the last episode she accidentally smoked crack & I cracked up. Normally this wouldn’t be so funny, but she already talks a mile a minute & then she sped up WHILE running away from the guy Jessa told to watch over her. And then there’s Marnie. She is the quintessential girl in the group defined by her relationship with her boyfriend. She is absolutely gorgeous but bitchy as all hell & annoying because everything revolves around her relationship with Charlie or lack thereof. Back quick to Hannah since I got off track up there. She is in a very strange relationship with a guy named Adam who is ALWAYS inappropriate & quite honestly a jackass to her. She is floating from job to job after being cut off financially from her parents which she whined about like a little bitch. Seriously?!?! Time to grow the fuck up!! Honestly she annoys me like crazy, yeah I know I’ve already said that but I don’t think I can say it enough.

Anyhoo, because I can’t help but be drawn back in but also because I don’t know why I’m going to hover between an A- & a B+. But I think it’s worth a try for anyone really.

 

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I have just finally gotten around to watching the first part of Breaking Dawn & what a piece of shit it is. I will admit it I really enjoy the book series. It’s fluffy, silly & light reading with enough sentimental shit to tug on my heartstrings but overall I have not been impressed with any of the movies. I found them to be getting steadily better from the first installment but this last one takes the rotten cake to another level.

How many damned slow motion close-ups do I need of Bella’s pouty face. I maintain that this book (regardless of how massive it looks) had no business being made into a 2-part movie. There is not nearly enough to keep it full of interesting visuals & this movie made it blatantly clear by spending forever and a day on a wedding that, let’s be totally honest here, Bella looked miserable walking down the aisle to.

And what on Earth was going on with those wolfy voices?!?! Were they trying to yell at each other from inside a cave or something? Makes no bloody sense why they would talk like that at all. What a fucking joke almost all of the wolf scenes were actually. That lame fight at the end? Give it up, men don’t watch these movies so they can say they watched the best (re: LAME) action sequence EVER, if they watch it at all it’s to make sure they are getting laid, hopefully with extra goodies thrown in there for them. SO stop trying to appeal to men, they don’t give a rat’s ass.

I will say, however, that the job they did at making Bella look emaciated was exceptionally done. She looked disgusting, so well done special effects/make-up people. If only the acting was on par with the make-up but hey we can’t get that many miracles from that department can we?

The honeymoon was filmed beautifully but again entirely too many close-ups and slow motion shit. Yes, I get it they’re finally having sex but slow ass filming of playing chess….. what the fuck!

I am pissed off even more so than I have been about any of the other movies. Thankfully this waste of my time was brought to me free by the Halifax Public Library system so that’s a plus.

For all the people out there that told me this was such an amazing movie & the best of the bunch so far……….

What the fuck were you watching???

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I work part time at a gas station, & yes I realize that fueling stations are highly irksome for many people these days because of the gas prices. It sure does make having summer fun much more expensive, I get that but do you have to be such assholes when you come in to see me?!? This beginning part will entirely be about customer service fails (on both sides of the spectrum).

I work weekends, every weekend unless I specifically ask for one off & actually receive it but that’s besides the point… Point I’m trying to make is that while most people I see are enjoying their weekends I am at work pasting a smile on my face while YOU come in all miserable-like. WTF! Get a grip on yourself, you are not the center of the universe & simply because you are my customer I will not pretend you are.

Common courtesy goes a loooooong way. If someone greets you with a smile & asks how things are going, well the polite response would be, well honestly any one really. Don’t just shove your damned money at me and say $20. Or grunt at me, for the love of dog people, you are not hogs, how do sound so much like one? That goes without saying for the person on the other side of the counter too. For obvious reasons I will not name where I work but most FB people will know anyway 🙂 But there are some MAJOR idiots that work where I do, to the point that I left a very specific note pasted on the counter that it is the customers that pay our bills so start acting like it. There are few of us there that seem to know how to smile at people, it’s not that fucking hard. Or greet someone when they walk through the door or even at the very least when they get to the counter. It’s also a pet peeve of mine when cashiers ask, “Is that it?”, it sounds so damned rude to me, sometimes they even omit the IS, so “That it?”, no eye contact, no smile nothing really that says hey we appreciate your business. Does that clichéd? Yeah maybe so, but since my mom was a single mother  most of the time & raised us on a waitress’s wages, customer service meant the difference in what we ate. As a cashier it doesn’t quite work that way, but the value is still ingrained into me. I personally take pride in my own work,, I’ll be totally honest I really couldn’t care less about the company but they are damned lucky to have me & I don’t say that because I am conceited. However, I do my work and a good portion of other people’s as well because I can’t stand for people to think it was me that did such a terrible job. I also am quite good with customers even when, to be honest, I don’t much like people at all. What’s that? You want specifics. Oh you’re so on!!

This past weekend I gave a customer 15 cents change when he was supposed to get 13 cents, because I hate to count pennies. Well turns out his nickel was an American one. No biggie right, well you’d think I gave him one I had just spit on. He turns around, pushes past the customer who is at the counter now and throws it on the counter but doesn’t say anything. So I ask, “Is there something wrong?”. “I don’t want that.” he replies. “Okay?” So he looks at me for a second and then says in a snide voice, “I WANT a Canadian one!” If I had been thinking quickly enough, & wasn’t so incredulous I would have grabbed 3 cents from the penny cup and gave him those since all he entitled to was 13 cents but I was more surprised than anything. It’s a fucking nickel, not $50, get a grip on yourself asshole!

And from the other side. When you pick up the pump nozzle at out stores it gives us the most annoying noise in the world to authorize you to allow your pump to begin. Ideally we should respond quickly enough but that doesn’t always happen, especially if you have King Lazy behind the counter. Now King Lazy is a not very bright new person working at our store, if you think that’s not being very nice then you tell me how you would describe somebody who didn’t know how to use the calculator or what a decimal was used for. Yup, I am in no way kidding. What I can’t understand is how that even happens. He’s younger, somewhere around 20ish, and at that age when you go through school everything is done by calculators and computers not by your very capable brains (as it was when I went to school). So how on Earth does someone not know that ten dollars and twenty-five cents is put into the calculator as 10.25 or for people that don’t bother using calculators, not know how to convert the value in your head. Blow my mind… Anywhoooo, off topic so back I go. SO King Lazy is working ( well he’s there at work that is), and the gas pumps are going off for authorization and he’s got his ass stuck on a stepladder trying ever so hard to reach our screens by stretching. Ever see the Simpson’s NY episode where Homer tries to reach for the pizza place with one foot on his car, well yeah that’s basically the idea here. Obviously it doesn’t work out, so he sighs visibly, gets up, stretches his back first and THEN finally authorizes the pump(s). When these people come in the store he hauls himself back off the step stool and hits just one of the random pumps on the screen, tells the customer the amount only to be told that that was not the right pump. No greeting, no smile, no please or thank you. Not a fucking thing! I can’t stand cashiers like that, mostly because I hold them to my own standards which are high.

I believe in professionalism at work, even at a gas station or WalMart or wherever. There are certain things that should be done and certain things that should not. Going home with one of your customers that you just met is on the DO Not Do list in my opinion. But that line has been crossed several times by one employee where I work. A customer brushing a piece of lint of my chest has been done, I almost hauled off and punched him but somehow restrained. That was a brief stint at a bar for a second job, but I did not enjoy the dynamic of having convenience store customers who were normally on their best behaviour all of a sudden take a different turn, like the above scenario so that DID NOT last very long.  I also believe in not judging a book by its cover. I had a biker in this weekend who looked rough I’ll admit it, but that doesn’t mean I treated him any different. Apparently he gets a lot of that though because he told me it was nice to actually have someone treat him with respect and not vermin, and someone who actually smiled at him. He said people often see the leather M.C. jacket and assume he’s part of a gang. Really? People deserve respect no matter who they are unless they have done something to you personally to lose that, who the hell are we to judge anyone for what they like in the first place? I suppose when you grow up in a city with Hells Angels who were always nice when they came in the stores I worked at, you gain a different perspective.

I believe in customer service, it is a job looked down upon by so many people but without the service industry you would be shit out of luck for your goods. I created this a little while ago for some manager’s training I had to do, but it’s entirely relevant to so many other things.

 

It was meant as a reminder to the cashiers to smile for their customers & a little incentive to smile pretty. If The Rock in a dress doesn’t to it for you, well you are dead inside, lol.

After letting go of someone for their poor customer service, he asked us “Well do you expect me to fake it?” You’re fucking right I do!! If you come to work a miserable dick everyday I have no use for you. Everyone has those days, but you persevere through it & if you just can’t anymore then it’s high time you get out of there.

I would love to hear your own customer service nightmares below, so leave me a comment describing it, I have so many I truly think I might start a new blog about it because I’m already at 1500 words and I haven’t even started in on my second topic yet….

So on to the much anticipated Diablo 3 release. I have mostly been playing a monk & I really enjoy her but have been plagued by lag like many others but thankfully not half as bad as those in Australia or Taiwan have had it. One of my biggest peeves about this game is that it is online play only & I don’t like that aspect. If I am playing solo, I should not have to be online for that to happen, it leaves the game open to the lag issues & if you enter general chat it is FILLED with more gold spammers than WoW or people talking up their skills and everyone else’s lack thereof or trolls, lots and lots of damned trolls. Once I am in general chat I have no idea how to get out of it. I have not been pleased so far with loot drops, the rares I find are not suited for my monk so I am surviving on a lot of blues 😦 I have also tried the demon hunter who thus far I am not loving although I finally got something to hit groups with & that’s cool but it drains my resource quickly. So far the generator spell is weak and takes several hits & I don’t like that but once I’ve worked a bit more with the monk I’ll go back and play a bit more. I’ve also tried the witch doctor but I seriously can’t remember gameplay with her. I am the type of person who likes instant results, it’s why I am a terrible frost mage in WoW, it takes strafing and time, whereas I leveled with fire, bang bang you’re dead now & I love arcane because I’m quite honestly a lazy DPSer and I only have to hit a few buttons to kill things, still before they reach me. That’s the vibe I am getting from the DH, strafing and technique both of which I have no patience for. Probably why I’m a terrible PVPer as well. I still have the Wizard & the Barbarian to try yet, and am pleased to see that mana regen is soooo much quicker than it was in D2. For thos of you playing hard core, man oh man, all the power to you. I do not have the desire to do that because I would be SO pissed if I died & lost everything I had worked for. Okay I’ll be honest not if I died, WHEN I died. I know myself. But I still want to try playing with another person through battlenet, if I’m being forced to play online might as well give it a try with another person I guess. I also plan to give PVP a try, though I am sure it will have disastrous results, I am curious how it will work. Arena like I wonder? We’ll see I guess, but so far general chat has monks & demon hunters as the front liners for being epic PVPers, I don’t think even that will help me, although I can heal myself which is pretty awesome!!

 

Today’s Blast From The Past is Diablo 2 to go with D3. I played this before the first Diablo and it has been my fave since then, I hope that D3 will take over that spot but Blizz still has some things to fix first in my opinion. I could spend hours playing this game & often did. The necromancer & the assassin were probably my fave characters although I also enjoyed the druid and the paladin immensely. I can no longer play it on my computer because it begins blankign out terrain aspects so I can’t always see incoming mobs, not cool if youplan on staying alive.

 

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Another collaboration with Eric (Guess who’s idea this one was, lol). We each have 25 because I simply couldn’t cut my list down, and just kept thinking of more instead of less. Once I reached 25 that was it though, no more. They are in no particular order and are listed by their show character, not necessarily their actual names.

Here is Eric’s list, check it out….After you’ve checked mine out, lol

Zack Morris – Saved By The Bell

 One of my childhood crushes. *Time out* *Time In*

Weevil – Veronica Mars

And Weevil on a motorcycle, yum yum even better!

Tory Belleci – MythBusters

Tory cracks me up, and he’s willing to do just about anything. Can’t go wrong there.

Spike & Angel – Buffy The Vampire Slayer

I’m actually fairly new to this show, tried it before left it then started trying it again with Netflix. But these two guys make Buffy’s whining easier to sit through.

Scott Wilson & Justin Lukach – Departures

Another new show. Justin is HILARIOUS! Scott is so down to Earth and sensitive. I love the two of them traveling together, and pushing each other to do different things.

Sawyer – Lost

Ah Sawyer!! King of nicknames, and King of my Lost heart!

Jack – Revenge

He’s just so darn sweet, you can’t help but love him. But then he gets behind the wheel of his boat and I’m just lost.

Pacey Witter – Dawson’s Creek

Pacey was not only my favourite character of the series, but in my eyes he could do no wrong, even when he was doing the teacher.

Khal Drogo – Game of Thrones

Jon SNow – Game of Thrones

My GoT boys. Drogo is so damn sexy that it makes me want to watch Conan just to see Jason Momoa barely clad again. And Jon Snow is such an endearing character he makes my heart melt, plus those ringlets aren’t bad wither ;-P

Kappy – Greek

The sensitive party boy, somehow able to make ugly hockey hair look good.

King Henry – The Tudors

A far cry from the portraits of actual King Henry the Eighth. I’d risk beheading for those ice blues and pouty lips.

Nathan Scott – One Tree Hill

From asshole to sweetheart to lost to superstar and so on and so forth. Whatever his ‘tude is, he’s still a great husband and father and I just love him to pieces.

Gordon Ransay – Hell’s Kitchen & Kitchen Nightmares

Yes, he’s a huge asshole, but he’s damn sexy while being one.

Eric Northman & Godric – True Blood

Eric is always smoldering no matter how much of a jerk he’s being, and there’s something about Godric’s manner and then his tattoos that get me going.

Dexter Morgan – Dexter

Dark passenger and all.

Coop – Nurse Jackie

Coop is so flippin’ funny, stupid as hell but lovable all the same. I even think Jackie’s starting to come around to him, just a smidgen.

Caleb – Pretty Little Liars

This is definitely more of a , darn if I was a little younger I’d be all for him. He’s a sweetheart with an edge, which seems to be a theme here, lol

Michael – Roswell

Broody Michael with his smoochable lips!!

Agent Seeley Booth – Bones

Agent Booth can arrest me any day!!

The Big Bang Boys – The Big Bang Theory

I couldn’t decide on just one of them. Leonard is short but sweet and pretty good looking for always wearing hoodie, Howard cracks me up and I love a man that can make me laugh, Raj is too adorable for words which would be just fine since I’m a woman and he wouldn’t talk to me anyway, lol. And Sheldon is just plain Sheldon, can’t help but love him especially that itty bitty laugh he does.

Bazinga!!

Anderson Cooper – CNN & Anderson & Anderson 360

No matter how boring the subject he may be discussing, he makes it look good while he does it.

Amar – Little Mosque on the Prairie

Former lawyer, madly in love with a woman and a great friend and imam.

Cesar Milan – The Dog Whisperer

I might not agree with all of his advice, but he is a dog lover and so patient with the people he tries to teach. And I love listening to him talk in Spanish!

Bart SImpson – The Simpsons

As a child I had such a mad crush on Bart. Carefree (duh, he’s a kid) and a rule breaker, that’s my kind of cartoon boyfriend, lol

Greg – CSI

He cracks me up, and his wacky hair and smarts work for me!

So it seems as though a theme is present. I like humour, bad assness & crazy hair it seems. Well Eric has 2/3 so maybe there’s something there after all. J/K husband I love ya!!

You can check out his tv crushes Here

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